Alright, I’m gonna tell you exactlyhow I feel about you: I need you. Short & simple. Every nite you are the one I turn to. I don’t think I’d be able to survive without you. Idc how sad or pathetic it makes me sound. No one makes me feel the way you do. You give me comfort & warmth unlike any other. You’re always there for me. Through the good & the bad. I haven’t gone a single day without thinking about you. Falling asleep with you is the best part of my day. I could try & replace you, but it wouldn’t be the same. We’ve had so much history together. No one would be the same as you. They wouldn’t sound, feel, or smell the same. Just a generic copy of you. You are a major part of my life. & as long as you’re around, you always will be.
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Thank you dear. :) I just get busy with my other Tumblr & forget I still have this one. I’ll try to write more often though.
I can see it in your eyes. That cold & vacant stare. Even when you’re with me, you’re not here. You’re lost in a sea of thoughts & emotions. Buried somewhere deep within yourself. The deeper you go, the more you kill me. You kill that little glimmer of hope I’ve been so desperately clinging to. It’s not fair. I’ve given you everything I have of myself to give & it still hasn’t been enough. Will it ever be enough? Probably not. I still see nothing but hollowness where there once was rays of any feeling at all…
Every day is winter when you have a heart as frigid as mine. “Cold as ice” is the way I prefer it. All frozen away from everything. It’s the only true way to protect yourself. There was a time when I wasn’t that way. But it was almost the death of me. When you let ppl in, you let in the potential to hurt. & boy did I hurt. I never wanna go back to that life again. Sure, I might be alone at nite wishing with all of my soul that I had someone to connect to. But with no one there, there’s no one to leave me. I’ll just die an old spinster that threw out feelings like a used tissue. Or die because underneath all the ice, my heart is broken.
I’m a terrible person. There- I admitted it. I haven’t appreciated you the way you deserve. You’re one of the best things in my life & I don’t treat you right. I make you feel like shit. & now- that makes me feel like shit. I never wanted to hurt you. But we ended up hurting each other. I get mad & say things that I don’t mean. I refuse to let you go though. A day without you wouldn’t feel right. Talking to you makes me feel alive. I love you more than I should. But I can’t help myself. With you- I feel right. All I can do is say I’m sorry. I’d say it a thousand times if it’d stop you from leaving. I’ll do whatever it takes. You’re worth changing for.