LOVE ME GENTLY WITH A CHAINSAW

VANESSA.
25, F, PANSEXUAL, TAKEN.
I'm a: vegetarian, artist, & a lover.
This is my Tumblr specifically for the poems/notes I write.
I may not say it very often (or if at all), but I want you to know how I really feel about you. You are absolutely beautiful to me. There- I’ve said it. You everything gorgeous, pure, & wonderful in this world to me. & I hope you always stay that way.

I may not say it very often (or if at all), but I want you to know how I really feel about you. You are absolutely beautiful to me. There- I’ve said it. You everything gorgeous, pure, & wonderful in this world to me. & I hope you always stay that way.

Ever feel like you don’t belong? Fuck it, who am I kidding? Everyone has. Like you’re just going through the motions of life because that’s what ppl expect of you. That’s what you’ve been badgered into believing is society’s norm. You go around living, but not completely. Feeling like a ghost. Just empty hollowness. You could be in the middle of a crowded room & feel utterly & completely alone. Like you’re just there existing. I feel this way almost every single day.

Ever feel like you don’t belong? Fuck it, who am I kidding? Everyone has. Like you’re just going through the motions of life because that’s what ppl expect of you. That’s what you’ve been badgered into believing is society’s norm. You go around living, but not completely. Feeling like a ghost. Just empty hollowness. You could be in the middle of a crowded room & feel utterly & completely alone. Like you’re just there existing. I feel this way almost every single day.

Just when I think there’s a lil’ light creeping its way in my life, I get proven wrong. Everything I have/am is darkness. Everything has become so tough. It’s near impossible to be happy when things are this way. I wanted you. More than anything. Nothing else but you. But somehow, someway…I lost.

Just when I think there’s a lil’ light creeping its way in my life, I get proven wrong. Everything I have/am is darkness. Everything has become so tough. It’s near impossible to be happy when things are this way. I wanted you. More than anything. Nothing else but you. But somehow, someway…I lost.

Maybe I’m finally over you. I never thought that that would happen. I tried so hard so many times. But I just couldn’t let you go. I fought to keep you. But now- I don’t feel the fight in me anymore. Idk what happened. I loved you so much it hurt. I couldn’t imagine my life without you. But maybe I held on too tight. I believed once that you felt the same way, but I think I was just being foolish. It feels like you feel nothing for me. So maybe I’ll start feeling the same way. Who am I kidding? I’m lying to myself. I might feel this way now, but it never stays. I’m gonna end up begging you to love me. Even when you don’t show me the feelings I wish you did, it just makes me want you more. There’s something wrong with me. I’m gonna end up texting you as soon as I finish typing this.

Maybe I’m finally over you. I never thought that that would happen. I tried so hard so many times. But I just couldn’t let you go. I fought to keep you. But now- I don’t feel the fight in me anymore. Idk what happened. I loved you so much it hurt. I couldn’t imagine my life without you. But maybe I held on too tight. I believed once that you felt the same way, but I think I was just being foolish. It feels like you feel nothing for me. So maybe I’ll start feeling the same way. Who am I kidding? I’m lying to myself. I might feel this way now, but it never stays. I’m gonna end up begging you to love me. Even when you don’t show me the feelings I wish you did, it just makes me want you more. There’s something wrong with me. I’m gonna end up texting you as soon as I finish typing this.